Precious.
After watching the movie Precious, and talking to some girls at my school today, I’m realizing a lot that God wants me to do. Our world is sick place. There are some crazy sick people, that take advantage of girls in despicable ways. I know that God is calling me to New York, but I’m seeing now, that there is just as much that I can do in my own school. There are so many girls, and boys being sexually abused. It breaks my heart, in ways I didn’t know my heart could feel. I know I’m needed, and that I can, and will do something about it…
"Take the wisdom given to you and run, run until you can’t go on"
"Incurable Humanness."
I’m in love with the fortys and fiftys eras. I love the fashion, the love, the music, the passion. I just love it all.
I think the reason I haven’t posted anything in so long, is because I’m afraid of my own thoughts. I’m so lost in my own mind because it’s going so many miles and hour I can’t concentrate on anything these days. It’s so difficult having the mentality that I am done and over with high school, yet I still have 3 months or so left of it. I know I’m feeling lost, and distant from everyone I should be close to, and becoming closer with those I should probably be keeping my distance from. I’m not sure where to go from here, but I’m hoping to figure it out soon enough.
TWLOHA
Even though God’s always looking out for me, some habits are hard to break. Shouldn’t be any excuse, but addictions are really hard to give up. I don’t really know how to change, or how to get back on track, or if I ever really was on one. I feel like a huge hypocrite, who doesn’t deserve to read the bible, or pray. I don’t know how to get myself out of this huge pit. But I know I’m tired of sitting down here. I want this depression crap to be gone for good. I wish it was really easy to stop acting hyper and happy all the time to cover how I really feel about life. I really need help, and I don’t know where else to turn
